Where to begin?

As I said in my welcome statement this is a new experience for me. I know that all things happen for a purpose. My faith also causes me to hold on to the fact that even the things that appear senseless... in time, Gods time, can still turn out for good. There are no accidents with God. So I guess this is where our journey begins.

I'm sure you probably have one of those friends that can finish your sentences or tell the waiter exactly how burned you like your bacon. You know the one that calls when you are in the middle of a big pity party and tells you to "Put on your big girl panties and deal with it!" that friend. The one that can pop in when you are still in your pj's with bed head and you never even think about pretending not to be home. You just answer the door and hear some scarcastic remark about what kind of new do are you trying to pull off with that hair. You know the one. Most everyone of us have one. I did.

While all the world kept spinning and cars contiuned to drive and planes still flew overhead and people were walking and talking....my world stopped the minute I stepped off the elevator and her daughter said, "I'm sorry, we lost her." Lost her??? Like she's running around in this hospital giving some doctor grief lost her? Or she checked out to get to the spa because she got mad you made her take off her toe nail polish before surgery lost her? What kind of "lost her" do you mean exactly?

This is my journey right now. For whatever reason it appears I have been introduced to the world of blogging, God only knows. I'm not an English major and did not even finish college so what you read and what I say are just real live feelings. Saying that, I'm sure you won't read very far until you find a type O or something that is not "correct grammer" as my daughter so often likes to say. That's ok. I'm not turning this in to my English professor. I'm not turning it in to anyone. I'm just sharing my heart and dealing for the very first time in my 45 years with a very sudden loss of my very best friend. As words come I'll continue on this journey.